as written on; February 09, 2007

we had four free periods today. sharp and piercing screams were heard throughout the last two periods. annoing faces were seen. made by people who of course are pissed at those annoying brats who were screaming like as though they were the only people on earth. alright. was kinda pissed too. the screams were too piercing. way too piercing for a normal human being to be able to stand it. sharp and loud. told them to keep their volume down and stuff. unfortunately seems like they dont understand the language i was speaking. alien language i guess. so alright. or maybe they didnt hear me. well course they were too loud. and she was trying to get them to keep their volume down too. so usually i wouldnt mind but wells. when i am serious i guess it can be really annoying. alright. i couldnt concentrate on my homework. so was feeling kinda irritated too. but it alright.

she cheated my feelings today. gave her morning call and she told me she doesnt feel like coming to school. and just when i thought i managed to convince her to school. she never turned up. i kinda expected it but was still hoping she turn up for school. shes lucky we didnt learn anything much today. and so. she didnt come and the whole class learned the 3-D loser sign. mrs tang taught it to us. how cute.

and so. my life isnt good. it has never been.

new year is coming. chinese. how i wish with this new year. i will be able to achieve wonderful ending. good results. good future. good course that will be able to do me good for my ideal job in my nearing future.

never suspect what your friends become in the future. some maybe expected. but some maybe shocking. who knows what will happen in the coming future? she maybe become a superstar. doctor. lawyer. dance teacher. so never look down on anyone for you may not know they may earn even more than you do even though they may look like they dont really work very hard during their school life. i trust in you that you can do well in your future. just believe that you can do it cause u worked really hard. and i believe many can see it too.

and as for me. who knows what i will be when i grow older. as of now. i still dont know. still praying but not working hard towards it. only after my o levels. i guess. and by then. if i am able to get that ideal career that i always wanted. will hold on to all that i have and work hard to keep it going. most will find it surprising but who cares. as long i know i like what i am doing whether i do well or not. whether i earn much or not. it will still allow me to know that i am finally working hard for something and to keep it going as long as it can last. others may find it retarded dumb. but to me. it will be a dream come true even though i believe many people wants it too and it will be really tough for me as i know almost nothing about it and compare those people and i. they will be like so super wonderful. and i will be like still trying to climb up to the same level as them. wells. i am thinking too much. already thinking way ahead then i havent even sat for any of my o levels paper.

ahhh! time passes and i am still slacking my way away. and spending my time on some really retarded stuff. new year shopping. havent done that. soon i guess. soon. should be going with my sister. damn headache. it kinda really suck. shopping in such short time. and you gotta get like so many things. oh damn.

i was told i changed. compare with the past me. changed from the naughty little girl to a good little girl. i never knew that. but if she insist then alright. cool. i am mature. unlike u people. Childish childish childish!